Lately, I've had a growing number of migraines. Two months ago, I finally went to see my doctor about them. I got a prescription to take at the first signs of a migraine. In two months, I've had 8 migraines...three in the last three days. It's getting a little old. But I am grateful that the medication seems to take the worst of it away, eventually.
I was also diagnosed about a month ago with allergy induced asthma. As I've been learning how to deal with that, I find I pay a lot of attention to my body and how it's feeling and reacting to things. And I find I am a little discouraged with everything that is going on.
And to top it all off, my back and neck have been driving me crazy lately...a visit to the chiropractor yesterday seems to have calmed that down a bit. Thank goodness! Rest on my heat pad will help, too.
Sometimes, I feel like whining and complaining...and often I do. But, I was reminded today that I can let these things bring me down...turn me into a grumpy girl...a whiny girl...focused on the pain and the illness and the depression that can follow....I can choose to wallow in a bad attitude, an "I'm so sorry for myself" attitude....
Or...I can choose joy. I can choose to be grateful for the rest my body demands (which I don't take often enough), for the meds I have now that help keep the symptoms under better control. I can choose joy. I can choose what? Joy? In pain? In an aching body that keeps me from doing things at times?
I CAN choose my attitude. I can choose to praise my God. I can sing to Him through my pain, through my illness...and allow Him to fill me with His strength, His joy, His attitude, His light. In Acts 16, Paul and Silas, after being stripped and beaten and thrown into prison, sang to their Lord in the darkness of their cell. They sang with the joy of the love of God. Nehemiah 8:10 says, "Do not grieve, for the joy of the Lord is your strength."
The joy of the Lord is my strength. I choose joy. Will you?